You were the pastYou were the pastAnd I was holding onYou were a ghostHaunting meBut I am free from youAnd I can finally seeAll the thingsI can ever beI was blindedBy familiarityAnd your warmthAnd the hopes and dreamsOf a very naive meBut I am not her anymoreI have grown,MaturedWith all that I have borne.I can't hold onto you any longerIt'll retard my growthI can't forget you eitherYou are all that I've ever known.But I'll learn to live with itThe memory of youAnd still move forwardTowards all the unexplored adventuresThat await me.
Ramblings 06I often find myself wondering…What if I could redo my entire life?What if I could do it all over again?Would I change anything?I know there are a few things I would want to…But would I be capable of changing them?Do I have the courage to be someone other than me?Do I have it in me to be another version of me?I can imagine so many different versions of me…What I could have beenWhat I can beAre they happier?Are the other me's happier than this one?Do they always get what they want?Do they know how to get what they want?Because this me doesn't.
HATEConsumed by hateThe feeling overflowing from my veinsEach crimson dropBleeding HATEI sit staringAt the gleaming flowWhen will it end?I patiently wait.
Ramblings 05Don't tempt me with your sweetness,Don't mess with my brainDon't make me fall in love with youIf you don't feel the same.
Ramblings 04There's a black hole inside of me…it is slowly sucking up my life energy, my existence, my happiness…everything.It is only a matter of time before I implode.
Empty02Sometimes everything seems emptyAnd meaninglessDrowning in hopelessnessI feel like giving upAnd letting goI can't breatheThe air is knocked out of meNothing happenedNothing changedStill hereStill blueThe only light I see…Is You.But you seem to be fadingAnd I am sick of evadingThe untold truth…
And now I feel stupid, all over againAnd I let it happen again.I fell again, to the depths.I let you walk all over me.The butterflies in my stomach took over;While my brain froze and my heat thumped,Brain dead but the words jumped.And now I feel stupid, all over again.